Memoir...

One day, a girl named Jessie transferred from a place far far away to Happy City. She liked the place almost instantly because she made lots and lots of friends. And there was a guy, Kent, who stood out. She could not help it. She got a crush on him. They always play together and eat together. But the guy only liked her as a friend because he was interested in another girl. Jessie felt sad and she tried to forget about him. She tried and tried and finally succeeded. One day, when she went to school again, she just looked at him as a friend. He became just another guy. She vowed never to feel this way bout anyone again.

But luck wasn’t on her side. Before long, she liked another guy. This time the feeling was stronger. She can looked at the guy for hours without feeling bored (without the guy knowing of course). He wasn’t the best looking guy nor really her type at all, but something about him struck her deep. Maybe the way he carries himself, his politeness, hardworking, the smile, him being a little shy around girls, not playboy… She never know for sure. All she knows is that she likes this guy.

Somewhere along the period, Kent started to like her and he confess his feelings to her on Christmas Eve. She was stunned and didn’t know what to say or do. This was something that she had always wanted. Sadly, he was a little too late, cause her heart now belongs to someone else and she was going far far away. But they always remained good friends. As the time approaching to the day she will be gone forever, she was in a dilemma on whether she should confess her feelings. Alas, she didn’t and she wept. Cried silently for the heart that she lost. That was four years ago.

Even after a long time, she always think about him. Maybe now she no longer feels so empty inside. Even there are some guys who enter her life, one who could had made her forget the past and lived happily, it never last. And she is to be blamed. Maybe it was just because that she wasn’t ready.

Everyday, she questioned “What if…”, “What could have…” but she never gets an answer. She vow never to make the same mistakes again but she broke her vow again. She is never brave enough to confess her feelings. Maybe it was the fear of rejection or worse… a ruin of friendship. Therefore, she always keep silent about what she feels. People say she’s being coward. I think so too but nothing can change that… All she can hope is a true love’s kiss and maybe she will never make the same mistakes again. Letting go of someone who meant a lot to her…

~jo-n~


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